Fated-Wings

Okay so we all know I'm kind of bad about keeping up with making new art or posting new stories, right? Well for all those that follow and are waiting for new things thank you for your patience, but we're going to have a bit of a wait starting monday. Yeah, so in August I learned my manager was pregnant and that she's due the end of this month, well she's going to start taking leave tomorrow and that means I'm the manager! Yay! I'm so doomed...
Why am I doomed? Two to three months of me as manager, I've only done a week at a time... and more so it's for Valintine's day! So most of my time will be spent making sure floral is going well and then the rest is going to be my anxiety going through the roof.
So please bear with me while I try not to die

So I learned something while I was at work today, and for once I'm not annoyed at a coworker. Oh no, this time I'm annoyed at someone I've known since 7th grade. Yeah, so obviously we've known enough about each other that there shouldn't be a real problem, right? Wrong. So very, very wrong. I have a friend who works where I work and she asked if I knew a certain someone, guess she saw the mutual friend thing on facebook and I told her yes, I knew her and what her real name is. Friend goes "she told me you were the reason her best friend committed suicide". Straight up my mind went blank. I'm the reason my best friend of nearly twenty years committed suicide. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. I cannot even begin to explain how annoyed and pissed off I am. Friend also tells me that girl goes on to say not to be friends with me among other things, I didn't get full details because as a grocery chain we've been slammed all day. So friday I will probably be asking Friend more about this, because apparently girl also was saying things about the sweetest guy you'd ever meet, and I need more details. Some people are just rotten

My depression is at its worst right now, the reason? I unfriended on facebook pretty much everyone I met in collage minus just a small amount. Like, two people, one of which I will most likely unfriend later.
This includes the person who helped me through my depression to begin with and just... I don't have friends. All I do is work with flowers and do my art. I'm no living and this just... gods help me.

Okay so I can't lie to little kids, and at my job I see them, a lot. Balloons, kids love them. So tonight I had a little girl ask my name, told her, asked if I had a lot of friends. I almost said I have tons, which after a moment of thought, I told her that I really don't have friends. Rook is about the only friend I do things with anymore. And that's rare at the moment because I'm working 9 days straight, meaning his free day I am working.
Little girl asked why I don't have many friends, told her I just don't, we got busy (that's a bit of a lie but hey, kind of true), and that one of my friends passed away last year.
Point is.... I don't really have friends. Brad and I will go Christmas shopping because the boy still doesn't know how to shop for me (I've had his stuff since summer), and Rook and I will see eachother Tuesday when he gets off at 7 am and I'm working (he's third shift, I'm all shifts), and aside from that that's it.There was a friendsgiving, didn't get an invite. There will most likely be a christmas party, won't get invited to that, not even sure about New Years this year, I've gone with them since collage and, well, the other person I'd have gone with killed herself, so... Idk.
I'm just... a sad and pathetic adult it seems.

My etsy store is up and running with stuffed animals!